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A RANDOM RANT #2



I find myself holding on to something or someone that is just an extra baggage. As I am holding it into my hand, without little knowledge it feels right but logically (in my hand) it is wrong! It doesn’t fit, it doesn’t need to be here and it doesn’t need to be in my life. It sucks because I LOVE IT. It’s my company when I am lonely. It’s my Friday nights when I am home alone; but that’s the thing… I held on to something for so long that hurt me may truly blocked me from moving on. It really sucks when you give someone a second chance thinking they have changed but they are the same person as before “NOT GENUINE AT ALL.” Where’s the hope? I can’t fix them but Jesus can. What a great reminder for my life. Jesus will always fix it.

All the signs were there, all the bad signals. I saw them but I did my best to avoid them. This man, this boy was an emotional rollercoaster, and honey I am sick of getting on this ride. I know what I wanted from him; I gave him all I had. He took advantage of weaknesses and that was only because I let them show. I let my guard down because in that instant I began to trust him. I began to give hope to a false future. I began to give a commitment to someone who wouldn’t commit to me. It’s so funny how I always try to date outside of GOD’s will and it never works out. I give a little hope to someone thinking, hey, maybe he is different but they never are. I’m so thankful for Jesus and how he shows me and tells me to wait on Him. I get so impatient along the way. Although, my flesh may never show it my heart does.

I will never discover true happiness without following God’s will for my life. God knows my feelings; he also knows what I like. My mother teaches me that I should wait on a blessing, such as a man of God instead of serial dating. It’s true because it never works out my way. -_-

The bible teaches me and US to wait on the promises of God. No matter how long it takes but we have to remember it’s never on out time it’s on God’s time. 


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