How I deal with Insecurities

“Genesis 2:24”

Many of us have insecurities, some of which we are afraid to admit. I have insecurities several of which I have been dealing with since a child. My most secret insecurities are my weight, wearing glasses and my feet.

The devil likes to throw things your way, things to remind you of who you once were and who you are today in Christ. He loves for you to compare yourself to others...to think like others, and he loves to hear you put yourself down. 

SHOCKING RIGHT?!

Well, too bad my friend because this is true.

I have been dealing with my weight that is my struggle and everyone knows this. My weight is a constant struggle and sometimes I find myself comparing my body to others. I remember when I had my first encounter with the Holy Spirit, I was told that “I didn’t have to live in sin and that my body was designed for my husband!”

 Genesis 2: 24 “Therefore a Man shall leave his mother and father and he shall lay with his wife and they shall become one flesh.”   

Yes I was one of those women who often at times fell short and began searching for attention in all the wrong places, showing off my body on the internet and searching for love from all the wrong men. I knew better but I felt a void for love from someone and little did I know love was right under my feet.  I think that a lot of my weight came from being picked on, verbal and physical abuse from a close family member and so on. At times I would feel this ugly spirit come upon me, and I would go look in the mirror for minutes wondering why all the pretty girls were likeable and I wasn’t. It was always hard for me to make friends no one understood me and no one accepted me. So that made me want to venture out into the world. I went home sometimes and sat on the internet on various social networks chatting and trying to kill voids that were still there inside of my heart. At times I felt like my internet life was my life and that I was nothing but an ugly girl in a town and I didn’t belong. The devil wanted me to think that, he wanted me to see what it was like and to be honest I wasn’t even really accepted in the world. This is when I started to meet men on the internet. I would think that they liked me and loved me and cared about me I would tell them almost everything like they were my best friends. They turned on me so quickly they often shared my pictures and other things to each other and it made me feel so weak inside. This drew me close to God. But even afterwards I was still unhappy.

I didn’t know that I was creating a Sin until God spoke to me and told me. He wanted me to know I was beautiful to him and that I didn’t have to hurt him by doing the things that I did. God does not want his children of the kingdom comparing themselves to the children of the world. To him, we have nothing in common with them. God wanted me to see the negative aspects of my sin. It caused me to hang around worldly people who often pushed me to be like them. I found myself comparing my body to my friends and my cousins. I wanted to be like them I wanted to have all the attention. They were allowed to dress wild and I wasn’t this caused me to want to show off my features. Sadly enough that failed miserably. It also caused me to chase men who really didn’t care anything about me. The worst part of which, it hurts when you have to find out the hard way. Your thinking this one guy likes you but in fact he is crushing on someone else and you were just a spur of the moment. He used you and he wants nothing to do with you now.  That is exactly how the devil is, he wants nothing to do with you but in fact he wants to destroy you he hates to see you happy and enjoying the desires God has for you.

God wants us to know that there is a way out for dealing with selfish desires and insecurities that can push us away from him. There is Power in prayer and power in a powerful personal ministry that you can start within your own home not just in a church. Spend quality time with the Lord on a daily basis and inherit that personal spiritual kingdom within your heart. First and foremost we have to give the LORD ATTENTION. He is our iPad and our electronics; we should always pick him up first. We should meditate daily with the word of God in our hearts. We should stop hanging around the people who don’t encourage us to pick up our own personal crosses and drawer nearer to king Jesus. We should start by giving ourselves compliments. We could compare our old selves to the new born again person that we are today. We should write encouraging messages and lift ourselves up daily with the lord, and the word.

God’s word is stronger than any two edge sharped sword. It can pierce through flesh and spirit.

I encourage you to thank the lord before you start your day and say a daily morning prayer. You can set your minds to think about God daily when you wake up and give him thanks for allowing you to breathe another second on his green earth. Let’s worship him and let’s not forget who we are in Christ. God can change our old spirit and make it Anew.

Let’s not forget our worth.

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the lord. Plans to prosper you and NOT TO HARM YOU, Plans to give you hope and a future.” 

Jeremiah 29: 11